There's Always Someone Cooler Than You...

12:23am: H.A.T.E.
Here's the thing...Here's the FUCKING thing...

I am fucking pissed off and hate this fucking town.

I also want to shoot a bitch in the fucking head...like, literally.

11:21pm: So yesterday I went to a Gonzaga Basketball Game.

We got to get in VIP style and sit in the second row...like two feet away from the court.

At a timeout, they announce that they're going to award the "Fan of the Game" with a prize.

Richard drags me onto the court.

They flip over signs one-by-one. "WILL" "YOU" "MARRY" "ME?"

Richard goes to one knee and holds out a ring in his hand.

My mind goes blank, I'm shaking.

I grab the ring from his fingers and put it on my own finger.

Richard keeps saying, "Yes?? Yes?? Is that a yes??"

I nod and start crying.

I awkward hug and kiss him.

People are chanting, "SHE SAID YES! SHE SAID YES!"

My mom and his mom appear. I grab my mom and we both start balling.

I'm still shaking.

My face was on the "Big Screen" all awkward and crying...plus, awkward kiss and everything.

I am engaged.




HOLY SHIT...I'M ENGAGED!

1:46pm: Mew Mew
- I am now an employee at Hollywood Video...I get free movies and can preview movies before they are placed on our shelf. My first day is Thursday.

- I start summer classes tomorrow. Lame-o. I want to just go bike riding, camping, live on the river, tan, and sleep all summer...not take classes for 6 of the weeks. Oh well, it will help me out next year.

- I watched Good Will Hunting for the first time last night. LOOOOOOOOOOOVE it. Please, check it out.

- Sometimes I wish I had a tree that grew money in my living room...actually, not sometimes, I ALWAYS wish I had a money tree in my living room. That would be nice.

- Richard is a love.

- Kelly works at Fossil! I am excited for discounts on watches and other items.

- I had a wine cooler with my mom when I was home. It was about the funniest thing ever. My mom said she hadn't had drank anything alcoholic in like 15 years. I want her to take a Gladiator with me when she comes to Spokane...but I doubt she will. Gladiators = GOOOOOOOOD.

- Richard beat me at playing Speed the other night... I am not happy about this.

- Life is slowly moving along...

1:46am: Pictures are worth a thousand slurred words...
Picture Album:

http://gonzaga.facebook.com/album.php?aid=2029711&l=06cb4&id=28203312

1:33pm: 21st B-day = I don't remember most of it...
Words that came out of my mouth on my Birthday:

"DRUNK, BUT I STILL REMEMBER THIS HAPPENING" FAZE:

Me: (smelling a shot Dana got me) "This smells like Cherry"
Dana: "Yeah, it's cherry...I'm gonna pop your cherry..."
Me: "NOPE! ALREADY BEEN DONE!!" (me pointing at Richard)

"BLACKOUT DRUNK WHERE PEOPLE HAD TO TELL ME THE NEXT DAY" FAZE:

Ryan: "Hey Montez, are you gonna do a tequila shooter with me?"
Me: "Ryan...you are baaad, you are a bad, baddd...."
Ryan: "So is that a yes"
Me: "Bring it on Jackson!"
As Ryan walks away I say, "If he comes back with those things, I'm gonna give him a blow job..."

Me laying my face on the toilet seat at the last bar: "It's like I'm kissing people's asses......"

I know there are more, but I can't remember. How ironic.

Went to 3 bars and I remember being at two. Was visibly drunk while handing my ID to the person at the door, yet they still let me consume drinks. Broke a glass at the last bar and another glass of water in Richard's bathroom that night. Apparently I was really really mean to Richard and kept spitting bread/water at him or on myself. Last thing I remember is being at the second bar and then waking up in Richard's bed.

I am never drinking that much again in my life...

3:28pm: My birthday is tomorrow.

I am going to get shitfaced.

I am not going to class on Tuesday.

I am so fucking excited!

11:21pm: PRO-CRA-STI-NATIONNNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!
Andre Nickatina is coming to Gonzaga.... This makes me L-O-L, but a little secret: I think I'm going to see him. Plus, the opening acts are Gonzaga rappers? Please, white catholic boys rapping?! HHHAHAHAHAHAH!

The weekends always go by too fast.

I have to do this 12 page paper for my Personality Theories Psych class. I have to be able to write a short biography of the person, and assess their personality by connecting it to two of the theorists we've studied. I really wanted to do Abbie Hoffman, buuuut, I think a lot of his personality was formed through drug use. So, I'm not sure if that would be an accurate assessment of his personality. My runner up was an Oregon native, Ken Kesey. He, also, enjoyed LSD.

I'll be home briefly for the weekend. We get Friday and Monday off for Easter. That's one perk of going to a Catholic School! :) Arrive Thursday Night. Lunch with Anna and the beeb on Friday. Massage with mom and Anna and Lacrosse game with Kelly Saturday. Sunday, probably church since it's Easter, plus family birthday celebration since I'll be home. And leave Monday. Short and sweet. EXCITING.

Richard and I watched Blood Diamond last night. I liked it a lot. It was intense and had a good story line. I highly recommend it.

I have a lot of shit to do in the next 2 weeks. When I have a lot to do, I become overly stressed and procrastinate even more than normal. Today, I did productive procrastination, though. Instead of doing my homework, I cleaned my disgusting apartment. So, that's good.

And end of update on my life. If anyone thinks of someone better than Ken Kesey or Abbie Hoffman to do my Psych paper on, do tell.

Ciao.

2:52pm: Oregon is out of the Tourney. Sad Sad Sad.

Spring Break was fun and exciting, I just never caught up on my sleep.

Beach. Family. The BEEB!. SF reunion!. Hotcake House. Greyhound. Mean Bus Driver. Pendleton. Richard 21 run. DRUNK RICHARD. SOBER SARAH. Karaoke at the bar. Gangster's Paradise. Drive to Spokane. Good Talks. Out to eat on St. Paddy's Day. A LOT of drunk people EVERYWHERE.

Back to School.

Friday, Ryan and I invited everyone to Ryan's house for a surprise B-day party for Richard. It was mucho fun and the keg was tapped in like an hour...damn freshman drinking our beer! Anyway, it was amazing and Richard had a good time. Ryan and a bunch of others took Richard to the bars afterward, and since I'm not 21 yet, I stayed at the house, and we had a dance party where I think my boob popped out. No Bueno. My body is now oh so sore. I think I need dance parties every day of my life.

I am now procrastinating on everything...laundry, cleaning my apartment, reading, homework, etc.

Tax Return = money in my account! Thank God.

I think Kelly is in Mexico right now...or is leaving soon. LATIN LOVERSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.

My posts never have a point...

9:41pm: I almost died today in an attempted car jacking/attempted ramming into my car/attempted robbery.

It happened about an hour ago. I am still shaking.








I don't know why I think I should trust people...

9:08am: ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
Highlights of my life: LIST FORM!

- New glasses as of TODAY. Plus, prescription sunglasses = no more double layering action.

- Richard left today. SOOOO much love for this boy. He makes life WONDERFUL.

- I've been looking up graduate schools for School Counselor Education degrees. I'll most likely be going wherever Richard ends up for Medical School. So, if he goes to OHSU, then I'll be studying in the heart of my beloved city at PSU. Or if he goes to Creighton (in Omaha, Nebraska...), I'll probably go to Creighton's graduate program. I am excited about the future.

- I've been spending most of my time with mi familia. I babysit the beeb tomorrow. I love that chunk. Please, 4 months old and 20 lbs. Fatty McFatterson. But, he is my favorite.

- New Years Eve = beer pong and good conversation with old friends. Why am I such a lightweight? I don't know, but it's not a bad thing.

- Adventures with Nikia at Taboo and creepy stalker man following us outside. We drove around all night, and ended up going to see the Capitol Building in Salem. Back roads can take you anywhere. So can non-stop conversations.

- Being 200 miles away from my love makes me remember why not living in the same town = BAD for relationships.

- Talking with Nikia about her bf = both of us getting excited about proposal/marriage.

- There are a lot of equal signs in this post.

- Life just keeps improving every day.

5:14am: "Scars are souvenirs you never lose, the past is never far"
Nikia's entry made me extra nostalgic. I miss Senior Year. Why was that the best year EVER? I don't even remember the whole school aspect, all I remember is lunch table memories and car rides after school. Is it weird that we usually never saw each other on the weekends, except toward the end when Pendleton Boys came to visit?

Hotel Vintage Plaza = Prom Night = 18th Birthday = one of the best nights of my life.

Random Drives to Multnomah Falls.

Nikia and SF fighting over shot gun or window seat (when I had the truck).

Pendleton Prom Trip.

Long, detailed conversations between Nikia and I by Woodstock Park before taking her home.

Lunch Table Madness. Please, Mr. Talley anyone?! He is in one of our lunch table pictures! AH HA!!



I should be studying...and I have been, like mad, and am starting to go blind from this history study guide. I'm in Western Civilization, and I find myself wondering, "What if I'm somehow related to Charlemagne? or Christopher Columbus?" I have weird thoughts. It would be pretty cool if I knew my ancestry all the way back to then, though. I really have a love for history. I have an even bigger love for my History Professor for next semester. AMAZING! Plus, he went to PSU for his Master's and worked at Pioneer Courthouse Starbucks.

Richard, don't be jealous.

Let me tell everyone a little thing about John Comrie...He has a girlfriend. I am hoping to meet her when I go to Pendleton this weekend. I NEEEEEEEEEED to meet this woman. I love John Comrie. We are going to have babies.

I need to clean my apartment Thursday (after my finals). Then Thursday night = Ugly Sweater Party at Ryan's. College life is ridiculous. Work like mad, then party till you pass the fuck out.







I am excited for a month in Portland. I am not excited to live at home again, though. The dad = thinks he still is in control of me. F-ING LAME. You do not have control over me. I am just a guest in your house, not a child-slave. I will be home when I want and will help around the house to the same degree that he does, which = not so much. Thanks.

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
S-Mo

7:12pm: TESTERRIFIC!!!!!! (This name is retarded)
I thought I should jump on the bandwagon...


Create your own friendquiz here

7:21am: I AM FUCKING UPDATING ABOUT MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!

Let's see...currently, I am drunk and sitting in my living room waiting for Richard to finish doing homework! Why am I the only irresponsible one. Why am I wrigitng in Live journal in my state?

School sucks major balls, but only 1 week left of real classes, then finals, then back to Portland to make love to SF under the X-mas tree. ALL NIOGHT BITDCHES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Let me tell you what is in my bloodstream...beer....vodka....cranberry juice....plus, Techno is playing right now and I am dancing by myself.

Richard stop doing your paper and love on me, thanks.

I am also wearing an "ugly sweater". My roommates from last year decided that they weren't going to have their ugly sweater party till NEXT weekend but decided that they wouldn't inform me...and I had already been pre-gaming and decided to keep gaming it! Whgat does that even mean!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I need to go.

7:06pm: OMG, FOR YOUR EYES ONLY!
Dear Sara Frye,

I AM SO UPDATING FOR YOU! Plus, maybe I love that John B.'s fact was that he's been in seven foster homes...please, let's share this with the entire class. Oh John B...CADET John B, I salute you!

Plus, Harrington. DO YOU REMEMBER WHEN SHE GAVE AWAY MY UMBRELLA!?!?!? Who even does that? I can't handle that woman.

Sometimes I look back at my entries and they make me love Senior year. And memories at the lunch table or EHD or Art for Children. SF, why do you have the nasty Galati? PLUS, RETARD WHISPERER! WHAT IS WRONG WITH THIS WOMAN?! It's like she's mentally handicapped, and has so much rage and anger at EVERYONE. Please, Retard Whisperer MySpace is my favorite. Why does she have a picture of her dog with a goddamn princess outfit on...why?

I was looking through my memory keepsake boxes, and you wrote me a card in Art for children that said, "HAPPY TUESDAY!" and another that had a Foshay drinking a bottle of water...FOSHAY!

Maybe here is a secret, maybe I will be home for ALL of winter break (Dec. 17 - Jan. 12.) and we should get together and have a reunion lovefest. Thanks.

Now I have to go to English, with a huge bitch of a teacher.

Love, SM

12:51pm: I'm an Aunt.

Ryan Matthew = 8 lbs, 4 oz.; 21.25 inches long; big feet; big hands; and yes the rumor of big hands and feet is true...BIG Penis. I think his balls have already dropped and he's not even a day old.

Love is when you hold your nephew and feel as though you could never love anything/anyone more than that precious baby at anytime in your life.

My sister's water broke at 10:00 am 8/22/06...and she had the baby on 8/23/06 at 2:52 pm. Long labor = no kids for me for about 80 years. Plus, I saw him come out and that was the most amazing thing I have ever witnessed.

9:39pm: Spokanistan...and life
Today was 102 degrees outside. I was downtown watching "Hoopfest", which is the world's largest 3-on-3 basketball tournament in the world (so they say...) and I burned my body. ouch.

I like living in Spokane for the summer. I miss mi familia and Kelly a lot, but let's be real, I would be missing Richard a WHOLE lot if I was in Portland...so either way, there would be some inevitable missing action going on.

Having my own apartment is fun. I'm surprisingly WAY too clean. I think maybe because I don't have much to do, so I clean. I work from 9:30 to 3:30 Tuesday through Friday, and have nothing else to do with my life. It's nice not having homework.

My sister is having her baby in August. I volunteered to host the baby shower and am mucho excited for it. I made the invitations and sent them out last week. Everyone liked them, so that was pretty sweet. Oh, and if anyone has any suggestions for Baby Shower games, I'm all ears. I have a few. I also have to figure out prizes for the winners. This is the only project keeping me busy this summer.

Kelly is going to Europe tomorrow and I am mega jealous. Plus, she may get in contact with/see Roderick. I love this man. Seriously.

I'm going back to Portland this next weekend. My mom, sister, and grandma are going to the beach and I didn't want to be left out so I'm driving home. But I'm going to surprise my grandma. I guess she keeps telling my mom, "It's too bad Sarah can't make it out for our trip to the beach..." :) I'm pretty sneaky. The grandma will love it.

I really want internet in my apartment...it sucks having to come over to the school and rape their internet. Actually, it's more inconvenient than anything.

SF...I love the prom rape picture. "RAAAAAPE ME! RAPE MEEEEEEE!!!"

My most favorite is senior prom and waking up in a hotel room with my favorite biatches next to me. And the picture of SF with one of those penis looking balloons and a candle to represent Dick Wick. What a sad, sick obsession I had. Looks like it worked! :)

10:36am: I don't even know...
I'm sitting in my empty dorm room by myself waiting to check out....FREEEEEEEEEDDDOMMMM!!!!!!

Life is good. School is over and I'm going home for a week and then moving back up to Spokane to LIVE! I spent the night at Richard's APARTMENT last night and it was glorious! MMMMmmm Love the apartment. I'm storing all my stuff there till I can move into my apartment on MAY 23!!!!!!!!! AHHH SO EXCITED!!! :)

Finals sucked. I think I aced two, did alright on two and did pretty bad on one. LAAAAAAAME!

I'm excited to be back in Portland for a while. I LOVE P-TOWN. Everyone else from Portland that goes to Gonzaga is as much in love with Portland as I am. I think it's because Spokane is pretty lame. But I guess Spokane is better than a little town like Monmouth.

My updates are boring...sorry.

3:48pm: HIP-HOP-HAPPENINGS...
My Life as of 3:45 pm March 29, 2006:

- I'm sick...AGAIN! I seem to only write in LJ when I have a disease in my body.

- I'm at work

- My mom's birthday was Monday.

- My sister is having a boy...so that is MUCHO exciting!!!! :) :)

- I'm not living at home in Portland this summer because I found an apartment here in Spokane, 2 blocks off campus, and am moving-in during the middle of May.

- Richard is going to live in the same apartment building. He actually has the apartment directly above mine.

- I AM MUCHO EXCITED TO MOVE OUT ON MY OWN!

- Our apartments look into the backyard of a house that Ryan (Richard's roommate) is going to rent this summer and into next year.

- This means: BBQ'S!!!!, crawling home drunk (lol), and spying on him...ok, not really spying...that's just creepy.

- KELLY WON ROSE FESTIVAL PRINCESS FOR FRANKLIN HIGH SCHOOL!!!! YESS!!! I love this woman.

- It's sunny here today and that makes my heart happy.

- Knight and Seton try-outs are happening right now on our campus. I think I love this time of year. haha.

- I downloaded songs by "PANIC! At the Disco" and I like what I'm hearing.

- I'll be in Portland during Easter Weekend...mostly because my mom wants to see me on my Birthday which is also on Easter Sunday. I'm flying home which is cool because: 1.) I don't have to drive those wretched 5 1/2 hours through rolling hills of NOTHING; 2.) I've never flown by myself; and 3.) I like flying. :)

- I wish this school year would end. I don't think I can handle much more of this year...especially this semester.

- Things with my roommates seem to have settled down. I think they've finally realized that I like to do a lot of things on my own and I don't feel that I should have to tell them every detail of where I'll be and who I'll be with...thanks moms!

- I really like people watching. It may be one of my new favorite pass-times.

- There are TWO giant holes in my ceiling, because our smoke DETECTOR was leaking water. Come to find out, the boys TWO floors above us had a HOLE in their SHOWER...and decided that it would be a good idea NOT to tell maintenance...Result of stupidity from the boys in room 309: TWO GIANT SAWED HOLES IN OUR CEILING...when was this ever a good idea?

- I am going to get dinner at Sub Connection with Richard right now. Actually, Richard is my favorite pass-time! :)

PEACE.

12:19pm: Make a Great thing even GOODER!
I'm at work right now, and I'm typing up student response teacher evaluations. I work in one of the GRADUATE STUDY programs, just to remind you. That means, these people have already been in college for at least 4 years.

Q. "If you were to give this professor a suggestion about how to improve his/her teaching, what would you suggest?"
A. "Professor Koffman, you reach students very well. Perhops more feedback during class sessions, asking for more participotion from group would make a great thing even gooder."

Um, please..."even gooder". I don't even know what to think about that. Not to mention that he spelled two of the words wrong. Partici-potion? I can't handle people who are at least 4 years ahead of me in college to be completely retarded.

Anyway.

Life is interesting now. Things with my roommates haven't really gotten better or worse. It's just kind of awkward and I spend most of my time not in the suite because I don't like feeling like the outsider of the group.

ESPN Gameday is coming to Gonzaga on Saturday. I guess this is a pretty big deal. There are about 75 tents set up on the field in front of the Athletic Center by students who are camping out...basically so they can get on National Television. 75 tents X about 4 people per tent = stupidity. Plus, it gets about 15 degrees here at night. I don't even know.

I've been pretty sick lately and currently I'm just sick of still being sick. Argh.

Classes are ok. There really isn't any classes that I'm excited to go to.

I am completely in love with Richard. We've bonded immensely in the past couple weeks. He's my best friend and we always have fun together.

I miss Kelly and my family. Mostly my mom. She sent me a Valentine's Day card today in the mail and it made me cry a little. I love my mom. Kelly is going to be the next Rose festival Queen, because she is righteously awesome.

Richard and I are flying to Portland Friday, February 17th because my sister is getting married on February 18th. I'm excited to get on a plane. I'm supposed to sing at her wedding, but I've been sick. Hopefully I can pull it off. We'll see.

Not much else, so I leave you with this because I'm bored at work.


1. Your name spelled backwards?
haras

2. Last incoming call on your phone?
Richard

3. What is the last thing you downloaded onto your computer?
"Lazy Sunday" from SNL.

4. What's your favorite restaurant?
I like a lot of restaurants. I really like seafood restaurants, though, because Salmon is SO SO GOOD!

5. Last time you swam in a pool?
I don't even remember. I don't even know if my bathing suit still fits. I think the one i have is from sophomore year of high school. That's how long ago I've gone swimming.

6. Britney Spears is a skank. Agree or disagree?
She's more annoying than anything. I can't really stand to hear her talk.

7. How many kids do you want?
2 or 3

8. Type of music you dislike most?
Probably ICP...I'm pretty tolerant and like most types of music.

9. What was the last thing you bought?
Starburst out of the vending machine last night.

10. Have you ever ridden on a bike?
Yep. First time was even without training wheels, BITCHES!

11. Does someone have a crush on you?
Crush is an interesting word used to describe it.

12. Ever made a prank phone call?
When I was like 8.

13. Listening to music?
yeah, Garden State Soundtrack on my iPod.

14. Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?
Sky Diving. I WOULD LOVE TO GO SKY DIVING!! Seriously, it sounds like one of the most exhilarating things in the world. But bungee jumping kind of scares me. yeah, figure that one out.

15. What shoes are you wearing right now?
Converse, jeans, Gonzaga Sweatshirt, no bra...I didn't really feel like putting one on today.

16. Do you have a garden?
No, but I want one really bad. And I'll have the neighbor boy take care of it for me! :)

17. What's your favorite comic strip?
I like Pickles because the old people remind me of my grandparents.

18. Do you really know all the words to your national anthem?
Yep.

19. Bath or Shower, morning or night?
I only have a shower...and at night. I wish I had a bath tub.

20. Hello or goodbye?
Hello. Goodbyes are usually too sad and depressing.

21. Favorite pizza toppings?
pineapple and hickory bacon

22. Chips or popcorn?
depends. with a sandwich = chips. With candy and a movie = popcorn. Richard's kind of gotten me addicted to popcorn a lot more.

23. Favorite color?
yellow, blue, and green

24. What did ur last text message you received say?
"mew mew! :) I love you!" (Mew Mew is an inside understanding between me and the other person) :)

25. Have you ever been in a beauty pageant?
Nope

26. Orange Juice or apple?
Apple Juice

27. Who were the last people you went out to dinner with?
Tim, Camille, Marc, Lindsey, and Richard. We went on a triple date last saturday. Probably the most fun I've had in a while.

28. What did the last text message that u sent say?
Mew?

29. Lucky number?
8

30. Last time you ate a homegrown tomato?
Last summer. MMMMMMmmmmm

31. Have you ever won a trophy?
Kind of. In elementary school I got basketball and volleyball trophies every year.

32. Are you a good cook?
Not really. I wish I was.

33. Do you know how to pump your own gas?
Yep. I learned when I was like 10 in Colorado.

34. Do the chinese really use cats in their food?
Maybe...who really cares?

35. Sprite or 7-Up?
Not a big difference.

36. Have you ever had to wear a uniform to school?
Nope

37. Last thing you ate?
PB&J sandwich and milk. Lunch of champions.

38. Ever thrown up in public?
Yes, the dorm bathrooms last year. Good times at Akira's. lol.

39. Would you rather find true love or be a millionaire?
Find true love. (honestly, I hate this question because it is retarded).

40. Do you believe in love at first sight?
No, I believe in attraction, and like Nikia said, "curiosity".

41. Think fast, who do you hate right now?
I don't hate anyone, but I do have a lot of anger and aggression toward one person. And honestly, if she ever said shit to me, I don't know what I'd do.

42. Who was the last person you visited in the hospital?
Myself, and I went to pick up my roomy at the hospital a couple weeks before that.

43. Where will you be for Valentine's day?
Probably in class...unless I can con Ryan into going and taking notes for me since I took notes for him last time. But hopefully Richard and I will get to do something, even if it's staying in watching a movie.

44. Last time you laughed?
Today at lunch. I usually always laugh when I'm with Richard. He's a funny kid.

45. What's your favorite animal?
Panda Bears...And Tigers (that was for Richard)

46. What was the name of your first pet?
Joey

47. Who is the second to last person to call you?
Nikia

48. Is there anything going on this weekend?
ESPN Gameday, Movie date with Richard, and sleep (hopefully).

49. How are you feeling right now?
Sleepy, tired of being sick, not wanting to go to Philosophy because that class is unbearably BORING.

50. What do you think about the most?
My future...and how it seems like it's taking forever for me to get there. I honestly just want to get out of college and start my career, family, and life.

51. What do you think of the person that posted this before you?
I miss being able to take advantage of her spontaneity of deciding to go to the beach at 11 pm, or random drives to Multnomah Falls, or long, long, deep talks in her driveway. I miss having people like that in my life here.

2:13pm: UPDATE BITCHES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So, it's finals week and I'm taking a break from studying/writing papers.

I have a cold, Richard has a really bad stomach flu, I think Margot, for some unknown reason, is mad at me, and I'm sick of not being able to go anywhere because Spokane = icy death and I don't have studded tires.

So Margot, I love this girl to death. But ever since this weekend, she's been kind of shady toward me or just uninterested in ever being around me. I seriously haven't done a single thing...and the only thing I can think of is that I didn't go out partying with them (her and Brittany) this last Friday. Um, I didn't really feel like getting drunk before finals, thanks. Plus, to be honest, a lot of the time I just like to stay in on the weekends and spend time with Richard. He's usually so busy during the week, that I like to spend un-stressed time with him on the weekend. So, I dunno if she's mad because I'm not here on the weekends, or what? I dunno, and her acting like this really doesn't make me want to be in this suite anymore than I really have to. And if I have the choice of being here or somewhere else, I would definitely choose somewhere else...I just hate weird tension between people. I dunno, whatever. I'm kind of frustrated with life right now.

I'm a little more than bummed that I won't be able to see Richard for almost a whole month. But I guess this is life, right?

I just want for this semester to be over and done with. Just 2 more days...

3:20pm: "amber is the color of your energy..."
Kelly and Dominic are coming to Spokane this Friday til Sunday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm so flipping excited! Hopefully we'll be able to go to the Men's Basketball game this Saturday! Dominic might have a heart attack if he can go to a real NCAAP basketball game. I've never met a person that loves college basketball like this kid, so I really hope we can get the tickets!

I have to schedule my classes for next semester on Tuesday night. But a lot of the classes that I was hoping to take have like 4 slots remaining, meaning that I'll probably have a harder time getting the classes I want. Damnit. Plus, if I get all the classes that I'm hoping for, I'd be taking 19 credits, which means I would have to pay an extra fee of around 1,000 for those credits, unless I can somehow get it waved. But I doubt that'll happen. Psh, whatev. This is stressful.

One of my roommates hates me right now...but seriously, I'm over it because I tried being civil with her today, and she's still acting like a fucking 2 year old. GET OVER IT. God, whatever.

I went and saw Jarhead...twice...this weekend. I liked it a lot. I thought it was really well done.

I'm excited for Thanksgiving and being home for a while and taking a break from life, essentially. For me, going home is kind of a break from reality. My reality = gonzaga life. Home = vacation. It's funny how life works sometimes. So, I'm really glad that a piece of home (Kelly and Dominic) are coming up this weekend to somewhat take me out of this reality.

I should get going. I have some philosophy, history, and a Ceramics lab to do/go to.

Sorry my updates are mega lame now. I guess I'm just getting old.

10:47pm: "I'm so alive, I'm deep inside of you..."
I had mid-terms two weeks ago. Thank God they're over. This semester is half over. I don't know what to think about that.

I am loving life right now. Gonzaga is so pretty with the Fall Leaves.

I went home last weekend. I love my family. My mom is my best friend and her strength and the shit she had to go through in her life makes me want to be a better person. It empowers me. I love Kelly and Dominic. True friends are hard to come by, and I am so fortunate.

I want to see Nikia. I will in the Summer. And Christmas time. CHRISTMAS TIME!!! I've been listening to Third Eye Blind's "Deep Inside of You" and I think about her singing it as a message on my voicemail. ♥

Life is flying by in beautiful colors.

( Deep Inside of You )

8:12pm: BEAUTY!!!!!!
So, I've waited long enough to post pictures again. These are pictures of my roomies. And also, one of me semi-naked...becuase sometimes when we study for midterms for long periods of time we go insane and when we take a study break we like to draw pictures on each other with a sharpie...please, love it.

I love my roomies because they say things like:

"Sooooo, sometimes..."
"My favorite is when..."
"OMG" "BFF" in the same joking manner as us.
"You goddamn dirty slut..." and then 2 seconds later "I fucking love you!"

They also enjoy dance parties with ridiculous music (Ice Ice Baby please...Gangsters Paradise what? Thanks.)
And running at each other and slapping each others asses.

( OMG MY ROOMIES!!!! )

I am in love with all of my roomies. When I first met them, to be honest, I was afraid that they would be a.) stuck up or b.) exclude me from everything. But none of them ever do either of those. I love these girls. Completely. Margot is so freaking awesome because she stays up with me and listens to my shit even though she has an 8:00 class the next morning. And Christine and Brittany Fry are completely beautiful and have the best personalities of a lot of people I know. BF (we call Britt Fry BF and Britt Gable BG, just for future references...) has gone through some of the same shit as me in the past and we just have this bond with each other. BG is awesome because she cares about everyone and is so chill. And Katie is insanely funny.

Aww love love love. Anyways, Peace out niggas. I got shit to do!

10:18pm: Portland is for Lovers...
So, Kelly said my LiveJournal is dead...

OMG KELLY EDWARDS IT IS NOT DEAD AND NEITHER IS MY LOVE FOR YOU AND YOUR BODY AGAINST MINE IN A LOVERS EMBRACE.

Um, ok.

So, life has been superb lately (minus the details of being sick a week and a half ago and then wating to die when I was on my period...but whatev.) I love my roomies and this campus and my classes (for the most part) and Richard. But I also love Portland. I love my mom and dad and sister and grandparents and Kelly and Dominic and Nikia (even though you are FOREVER away...I still love you). Now I know the meaning of wanting the best of both worlds. I want the love I have for Gonzaga and everyone here to intermingle with my love for everyone in Portland and my love for the physical city of Portland. It's such a wonderful city, I don't care what anyone thinks.

I went to Portland this weekend. I surprised everyone and that made me happy. To be honest, the one person that I went to see mainly was Kelly. I knew it was hard for her to watch Danny leave and then a week later have her best friend leave. Plus, I've been missing her in extreme amounts. (I'm crying right now as I write this). It was the best surprise ever. I snuck in (or rather walked in in plain sight) to her Homecoming Dance and found her and had a movie moment and we latched onto each other and cried and laughed and cried some more and everything in the world was good again! :) I love Kelly. I would have her babies (if it were possible...)

I had a good visit with everyone else. I scared my parents when I came home because they were already in bed and they both jumped when I said hello. I thought my grandpa was going to cry when he opened the door and I was standing there. My grandma was really happy. My sister screamed and gave me a death grip hug. And Dominic yelled "SARAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!" really loud out his window and came busting out of the dorm doors and attacked me. I don't know if any trip to Portland is ever going to top that one. I love that city with my whole being.

I did miss Gonzaga life. I missed my roomies a lot and I definitely missed Richard.

I have all my pictures and collages up in my room now. And that makes me extremely happy.

I went to Pendleton Round-Up a couple weeks ago. I love the people in Pendleton. I definitely love John Comrie and Guillermo.

This Thursday I'm seeing Yellowcard at my college. It should be pretty bitchin', for sure. Then Saturday, Richard and I and some Pendleton people are going to watch a hockey game!! I'M SO PUMPED FOR THAT!!! I love going to sports games. I used to go to the Winterhawks Games all the time because my sister was obsessed (literally) with them.

It's been pretty warm in Spokane lately. It's nice.

My classes have been pretty good. I got a 94% on my Math test and have turned in 3 History papers (2-pagers) and got A's on all of them. So, I'm pretty pumped about that.

I'm drinking Lime Coke right now and I'm thinking that that is a stupid decision because I really should get to sleep soon because I have to get up at 8:00 am tomorrow and it's already 10:40. So, I'm totally going to try and get to sleep. Hopefully this was a good update...I kind of ramble on, but whatev! Love it, thanks.

4:52pm: I really have the urge to dress up and walk downtown...
So, I'm at my job right now and I forgot to bring some of my homework with me in case I got done with my job work early. Which I did, thus the reason I am writing in here.

I'm pretty sure I'm in love with Gonzaga. With the people, the curriculum, and the campus. Love Love LOVE. My roommates are definitely love. Richard is love. My job (so far) is love. And Spokane is love.

Even though I love where I'm at and the people I'm with, I still have an intense love and sadness being away from Portland and my loves that I have established there. I'm sending my work (where I was this summer) a package with Gonzaga pens and a letter. I really did love my job there. You know, I've realized that it doesn't really matter where you're at, it's the company around you that makes you love a place. Example: Pendleton. There really is nothing to do in Pendleton. But I love it so much because I love all the people there. They make that place worthwhile and special to me. I think this is why I love Gonzaga so much. I love the people that I live with and those I encounter everyday. That makes a HUGE difference. Those were the 2 things that I didn't have at Warner.

And I'm rambling.

I really want to own a DSM-IV. It's a HUGE fricken book that describes every Psychiatric Disorder, different Methods at treatment, and case studies done with each disorder. Buuuuuut, they're kind of a lot of money, which I don't have. But I seriously would prostitute myself to own one. Ok, not really, but I would love to have one.

Well, I'm off work in about 10 minutes, so I think I'll get going. I have math problems and reading to do tonight. And oddly, I'm kind of excited to do my math problems! I know, I'm kind of sick.